Howdy!!!!

  Hey ya all.  I hope everyone is doing well.  Time sure passes by quickly.  I didn't realize how long it has been since I put the last message in here.  It's been busy here with getting things taken care of for Jeanne and myself, and our babies (Andy and Chris) graduating here soon (June 11th).  They are the last of the original grandchildren of Della Binder-Mikesell.  We are going to have a celebration on June 12th at Jeanne's house for the boys.  Andy will be going on to a culinary school in Phoenix, Arizona, probably leaving in July, and Chris has been accepted to Boise State University, so he will be leaving sometime in August.  Yeeeeeeee Haaaaaa

empty nest!!!!!!!!  Jeanne and I are truly looking forward to planning our older years without children (other than grandchildren someday).  We are already planning to sell our houses within the next two years, and move out to the north-east country some where, just outside of Spokane.  A friend of mine, whose daughter also graduates this year will be moving up here this summer sometime (Wanda).  She has severe fibromyalgia as I do, so we like to make fun of each other, and try to look on the bright side of things.  Also, I have a friend that I have known since high school (Frank Fitchner - the Winters know him as well), he will be moving here from Kansas City in about September.  It will kind of be a "Three's Company" type of household for a while. Frank will be a great help to us, as he is already planning on helping fix up my house where it needs it, etc..  It will be so nice to have my friends so close again.  For many many years my best of friends have lived all over the U.S., and I have missed having friends around.  It will also help financially for them to be here as well.  Wanda and Frank are also welcome to move out to the country with us as well.  We want to buy a big piece of acreage for family and friends.  We could probably have some family reunions out there, etc..  We sure can't do as much as we used to, yet we are going to surely do the things we can, when we can.  Being out of the city will be a lot less stressful for all of us, as that makes our symptoms worse too.  Jeanne also has fibromyalgia, so we don't know how long she will be able to keep on working either.  She is a real trooper.  I am still doing my crafts as I can, and Wanda likes to do them as well.  I also have an account at E-Bay, and will be going through boxes of stuff that I have had stored away for years, that I had bought at rummage sales, etc., that I will sell on E-Bay someday here. I was trying to put one of Chris' graduation pictures in my letter here, but I couldn't, so I will try and put them on my family page here at this site.  I have also been really planning for my future, as I have taken care of people all my life, and now I can't, so I now have to figure out what is right for me.  This might sound a bit selfish, but it has to be now.  I don't hardly go places any more, as it is a bit hard on me.  My friends, and some family members have been telling me for years that I needed to take better care of myself, and not so much other people, and I am finally listening.  I find that it makes it worse on people's conditions to be around negativity, so I have decided to surround myself by positive things, and people, and let me tell you, mentally I have been a lot happier.  I'm sorry, but all my life (unknown to mostly all of you) I have been treated very poorly by those around me, no matter what I have tried to do to please people, so now at getting close to 50 years (2006) I am finally learning that people are responsible for themselves, and have to do things for themselves before anyone can help them.  Thanks to my psychology courses too.  I feel like this is a new beginning in a new chapter in my life.  God didn't intend for anyone to suffer needlessly, or because others are suffering.  Help where you can, yet not at the expense of your own health.  With my boys, other family members, and friends, I just have to pray, and truly trust in God to take care of them because no one can help everyone, and no one should feel guilty about it.  Guilt is one of the biggest sins, I learned, and I believe it because it is such a negative feeling, and does no good for anyone.  Remember, if you are not happy with where you are at now, don't take it out on others, and search for your happiness.  Each and everyone of us has to make it happen, or it won't.  No one is ever too old to find some kind of happiness some where, so go for it.  No longer be a victim of surroundings, and past happenings, turn them around to be lessons, and move on.  Feel free to email me at my home email address if anyone wants to.  It takes me a while to respond, but I will eventually.  I guess that is all I have for now.  Hopefully, it won't take as long to write an email in here next time.  I'll try really hard.

Love ya all!

Bev